We have had several 100+ days already this summer and July is not half over.

I think that it would be a good time for me to take a break and go on a vacation (warm but not hot, cool clear water to drink for relaxation and some yet to be determined ice cream delights.

So, I’m off for a while. Wishing you all a great summer. ALOHA 

I took a break this past winter. I worked on some personal projects. Painting inside and outside, ripping out my master bath and pulling a “Bob Villa” style do-over. I patched my roof, tore down my pool.

This past March I went down to Charleston S.C. to attend a funeral. My aunt, the one who basically taught me to water ski and had the most infectious laugh, was gone physically.

I was a reality shock for me. She was only 16 years older than me. I felt as though my life was slipping away. I know it becomes natural to “feel mortality” but I was not ready yet. I muddled along until spring was warm and breezy.

I started working in the yard pulling weeds, cutting off pieces of trees that were damaged by a particularly wet and snowy winter.

I tore out flower beds, re-mulched and replanted the beds. I had carpet torn out and new carpet installed.

I did a big shake up of personal items. I took one room at a time (it did not matter to me….I am the project manager for this segment. I am the person responsible. THEN I MADE A BARGAIN. I said that if I could find currency with the object I would sent it over for review/reconditioning. If the item better served an older requirement or was of no particular use/advantage it got dumped.

I made the comment that if anything was special to somebody they should take a picture of it and then say goodbye to it.

That is kind of where I am today. Do I really need this and if so why?

This process takes away from the hoarding mentality. It provides mobility, saves time, resource and money.

With the pictures you may still conjure up the memories and feelings that are good or important.

Think about what is collected, why is it collected, what advantage it provides other than satisfaction of impulse. This is one reason retail grocery stores in particular place cute or tasty items next to the checkout stations. They count on the old queue concept that they analyze to their benefit. If they know the checkout line will consistently have 4-6 patrons waiting it becomes easier to move (sell) small items. Do the thought process fairly often on what, why, what and it becomes natural. You end up with a good system of inventory, storage facilities and usable materials. You also don’t have to spend days getting STUFF ready so you can spend all day on Saturday having a yard sale and/or donating the stuff that has kept you from finding many things you knew were out in the garage somewhere.

Time on the other hand is different. It is given freely, for a price, or is taken and becomes lost. Time is a lot of things but patience is not one of it’s better qualities. Time decides “how long” and gives no more. It is gone. Take close heed of your time. Once spent it can not be spent again.

Stop, find your quiet place, relax, decompress and allow any stress to leave your space.   Clear current thoughts. Breath. Repeat your key word like “OHM” over and over while watching your breathing pattern slow down. Now choose what you want to focus your mind and energy on. Solve some problem or create an easier solution or a safer solution or a more productive solution. You can even waste some time looking at those animals that seem to pop up every time you take some time to just be, to look at the clouds and say what better way to spend my time right now.

Take some time.

This is a reality that everyone in the history of the world has learned. Like King Solomon, anybody with ambition, anyone who strives to be in charge (of whatever their mind believes is their destiny) learns at some point in their life that nothing in this physical plane lasts. Almost without exception everyone who comes undone as an individual has fallen to a vanity that is consuming. This is especially true of public figures from athletes to presidents. Even candidates for president have fallen from “grace”.

The news today also told us that “The Catcher of the Rye” author died today. Some say he lived most of his life after that book was written as a recluse. He appears to have become a victim of his fame. He lived 91 years, or he existed for many years. He had a passion for writing but after his fame from “The Catcher” he said all of the piles of paper all over his residence since he withdrew from people were written for himself. Sounds to me like a few I have known who literally “lost touch”.

I do find myself looking back at the times of growing up with awe and amazement. One thought, aside from all the good memories, is that I still get a little chill thinking about how I made it out of those awkward times.

I remember walking several miles at night to get to and from high school football games. I did the same playing baseball on Pony, Colt, American Legion and high school teams.

In all those times I only had a couple of incidents that could have ended badly. Once a “very bad” dude and his friend stopped me (I was walking towards them so I could not avoid them). I was walking home on a chilly night after playing ball. The dude said something about me and my baseball uniform. Then he said I’ll bet you think you are pretty cool, huh. I answered immediately that I felt pretty good about myself (not the brightest thing I ever said). He looked kind of surprised (actually dumbfounded). He grabbed my cleats that were unfortunately hanging around my neck. Now I am looking at my metal cleats in my face wondering how badly I am going to feel in the next few minutes. To my complete shock he threw my cleats (still tied around my neck) against my chest and said that I should be careful walking home late at night. He continued with “you never know who you’re going to run into on the street”. Another time I was riding in a friends car and he was going pretty fast. We came around a corner sliding and still “hauling” when we both saw a car in our lane that we knew was going slow because we were approaching very fast. I looked and there was a car coming the other way and there was a car parked on the side of our part of the road. I sensed that he would have to try to go between the parked car and the slow mover in front of us. He obviously was thinking the same thing. He sped up and “aimed” for the space between the slow moving car and the parked car. It was like slow motion and quiet as I saw the gap and felt us pass through that space. Neither of us said anything for a while. We both knew that we had dodged a very bad outcome and that we certainly had to believe that we were not alone that night.

I won’t dwell on this day any longer except to say the stock market fell over a hundred points, the Supreme Court was “flogged” in public to the chagrin of some of the justices, one in ten people looking for a job don’t have one and the people of this country surely came away from the ninety minute “state of the union” address with a little apprehension and ill feelings.

I say that we should all pay attention and heed what people have said all my life. I can’t count the number of times I have been cautioned to not believe everything we hear no matter who says it, believe only half of what we see until we can prove it to ourselves and always remain cautiously optimistic in our sense of what is going on as our present becomes history. Arrogance does not really count as an attribute. Hear (here) is one song that I really like about everybody, especially this guy who really hated it when my son told him it was one of my favorites. He immediately turned off the radio when he heard what my son innocently commented on about the song. he was my son’s stepfather.

The song is “Everybody Wants to Rule the World”. There are a couple of others included that have been big to me. One is from “forty licks” by the Rolling Stones called “Miss You”. I was looking at the tongue picture from the album that was pretty big back in the day. I had this thought (or flashback) at the time about when I was in the service and met this good-looking girl and asked her for a date.

I had told her my name was Muffy. Much later that night I told her my last name was Diver. Pretty stupid on my part because when I knocked on the door to pick her up for our date she introduced me to her father “dad, this is Muffy Diver”. I was kinda frozen and quickly shook his hand and asked her if she was ready to go. She said yes and I could hardly move fast enough to get into my car. I am still wondering about that night. 

So here are the songs I was referring to earlier. 

Miss You - Rolling Stones

 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hOf0FsA0Fio

Professional Concert Version - Everybody Wants To Rule The World - Tears For Fears

 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AMjzxHzZnnI

Listen To The Music - Doobie Brothers

 http://www.veoh.com/browse/videos/category/music/watch/v294452pMYWAJkc

Why Worry - Dire Straits

 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=im2SoltmZEc 

We have all (a lot of us) come into this decade knowing that we will not see a “cost of living” increase in our social security or federal pensions. The reason is that there is no corresponding index (CPI) increase that warrants more income needs in 2010 than in 2009. I also have taken a few economic and statistical courses. Enough training and course work to know that you can make numbers say anything you want (to say) with enough attention to the requirement you want to justify.

Does anyone really believe this with a national unemployment rate of 10%; one out of ten people actually looking for a job can not find one?

I have a little problem myself. The cost of energy, medical requirements, insurance costs, lower health benefits with higher deductibles. That does not include higher cost of many food products, higher automotive gasoline costs, shelter prices and others.

I for one have a lot of health insurance requirements ($800 per month) to go along with high family medical requirements ($500 per month not covered by insurance). I for one can not refinance my home to lower payments and have lost home value to the point that I can not obtain a home loan to fix/maintain my older home. My cars (both over ten years old) have to be kept (no budget available, no income to buy new) and they have had some big repair costs in last couple of years.  I have had water damage that my home owners insurance does not cover for flooring where it can not be proven that it was not from seeping, or structural integrity. I live on a sloping lot (yard descending from home about six inches to about thirty in twenty five foot run). I live on a lot that is not included in a 100 year flood plane. I had purchased water damage insurance in case of damage from inside my home. So I pulled up the padding to avoid mold and other probable issues. 

I am not one to complain, usually. My family is living on a fixed income so increasing medical and health care costs, coupled with being at a point where my home and cars need “added” care, are cause for “alarm”.

I am working on my resolution for 2010, my 2010 financial plan and and my 2010 life plan. I am already tired so I am going to take a break for now and go shower (in less than high enough water temperature to enjoy the relaxational benefit).

Oh! Moreover, I am very thankful for all the blessings I have in my life. I am not overly concerned with the future as I know my God will provide what I need when it becomes a large enough issue (that I need his help or intervention). Some people call it a just-in-time thing like saving costs by obtaining materials just as they are needed (just-in-time inventory).

I for one do believe in obtaining spiritual guidance while also believing in Gestalt and Existentialism. I also believe that you can manifest anything you need (per doctors Chopra and Dyer). The reality of instantiation, soul, universal, and potentiality quietens my mind. I no longer try to over-think or worry (anxiously) what “may” come. I accept that I am and that I will be.

May the new decade provide your every need (in your own odyssey with your own help).

God bless. 

I have been playing songs on my computer in the background while I “worked”. A couple of weeks ago I came across an old music DVD I made from my Beatles “records”. I know it is hard to believe people still have them. They keep company with 8-track tapes.

While looking for some of the “old” great guitar players I ended up on YouTube.

I selected some of them to put onto my computer.

You can check out some of my “favorites” in this blog. Obviously that is hard to do when current music changes with the culture and thinking of the times. So I have made no special attempt to get my best-loved music in this blog. 

Click on the little piece of film on the left of the URL address line and watch the music video. Then do it again on the next URL address line down. Of course you can play the same one over if you want. You can even play more than one at a time though it probably distorts the physical and chemical process that works on your brain so you can hear and see.

You can of course go on reading the blog  while enjoying the music video or just read the blog entry and come back when you have some time to go into the music videos.

These will definitely make your day a little different. They are not the Christmas songs you start hearing before the goblins of Halloween have all been quietened.

Let It Be - Beatles

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YBPFvp750sc

Come Together - Beatles

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6vAqekT-GuA

Everybody Wants To Rule The World - Tears For Fears

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tNpkTY8kwFQ

Miss You - Rolling Stones

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hOf0FsA0Fio

Professional Concert Version - Everybody Wants To Rule The World - Tears For Fears

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AMjzxHzZnnI

Listen To The Music - Doobie Brothers

http://www.veoh.com/browse/videos/category/music/watch/v294452pMYWAJkc

Why Worry - Dire Straits

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=im2SoltmZEc 

Cocaine (good music) Eric Clapton  

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qYS732zyYfU

Shout (professional looking concert) - Tears For Fears   

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aI9lo5BRJmg

I Shot The Sheriff - Eric 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=10qLYy6hiFQ

George, Eric, Ringo, Elton (jammin)  

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_aLLHFSM7i8

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BxEX__YXmDs  

John Lennon (Stand by Me)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O4_ghOG9JQM  

And now some music by one of my all-time favorites Michael Jackson

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w_Z8k5ChsX8 

Michael Jackson said “make a better place for you and for me.” 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VGwo6ZdEYMs

Two versions of the music video Earth Song follow; the second with Michael’s singing.http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E4Hcd60VoRM

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4FZcAzZOyOg  

Power to the this season, the year 2009, the decade, and music. Listen/watch these and see if you can remember some thoughts and memories or a time in your life associated with a particular song. When finished with a song just close the video (Apture software window) you are using to play the music video.You can repeat the song on the video software. “do it again” Dire Straits said in one of their best songs or you can come back to this post over and over to watch and to listen.  Enjoy the holiday season with whatever music makes you happy, gives you good memories or touches your soul. 

Give thanks to those who really do care for the environment, culture, mankind and how to best preserve our civilization. “Play it forward” because you can pass it on and know you are helping another person as you have been helped. A giving heart is what the Christmas season is for me other than the celebration of Christ’s birth. You can give of yourself whether you give material gifts or not. I have heard many times that helping others without expectation (other than knowing you made a difference) is what we could all do more often. The spirit is clearly moving and providing a tingling charge, like when you hear a song that makes you feel electric. Because it captures your soul and you have a profound sense of purpose,

I sometimes choke up myself and my skin starts to tingle and then feel as though I am being shocked by some low voltage electrical power source. A good power source for sure. There is a great feeling to see and hear a hit from our good times. It seems to identify you as having been right there “experiencing history”. I hope you enjoy these songs. They are meant to get into your head for a while, to make you smile.

I have an opinion. Everyone is capable of doing anything given the right circumstances, or triggers. We are both the best of and the worst of humanity. Adultery is almost a given potentiality when a person has a vanity problem, a superiority complex, or simply believes they can do whatever.

I remember commentary once about why Tiger would want to date a “blond-haired white girl” and the response was because he could. It did not appear to be a racial commentary but a factual one. That seemed almost to be an omen of what was to come. How many egos have felt they could do anything they wanted? Many.

How many times have we heard of athletes not being accountable, not to themselves or their families, nor to the people who pay for their efforts, for their product endorsements. It should be a given that public figures like Tiger present the best values and ideals to people, since they are advocates for and to so many people. Most especially their impact on the children who revere them as a role model (for the life and qualities they aspire to possess).   

News broke today (from Tiger) that he has had affairs, one for years. The highest paid, most competitive, “pressure composed” person in professional sports “is only human”, “is not perfect”, “regrets tremendously what has happened”.

I remember reading about this guy Solomon who had the same problem - vanity.

Damn Tiger, I can hardly believe the news.     

In the “story” there was a piece of the film depicting a futuristic type scene where a man became very old and then turned into a new world. I have often thought of rebirth from a full existence. Many believe in reincarnate as the “soul” living everlasting as a “universal” part of unlimited potentiality.  Such as the quote that goes something like you in me and me in you (both part of the same eternal).

(roots in quantum physics)

Thoughts are energy. If you want to use this energy for your good read on and enjoy the moment.

Develop an appreciation for now, the present, today. Value the now. You are only a thought away from changing your whole life.

I have heard many times that you have to live on purpose. Without that you are like a boat with no motor, no power, no compass. The waves carry you wherever they may go without any regard to you or your dreams.

Stay away from self-defeating ways. Think of the good, the positive, your wants, needs and desires. There is awesome power in maintaining a positive mental attitude. The energy of thought can be used to contact the universal spirit, or conscious, and attract good. You can use the synchronicity of your being (your whole self) to attract the object of your attention.

The law of attraction also requires you to practice some things.

1. Know exactly what you want.

2. Ask the universal for it.

3. Feel, know, and see (visualize) the object of your desire is already yours.

4. And the hardest to understand is to be open to receive it and let go of (your attachment to) the outcome.

The universe will manifest your desires.

Deepak Chopra has a book you should read titled “The Spontaneous Fulfillment of Desire” (Harnessing the Infinite Power of coincidence). The book sets up and describes the self (soul) and the universal soul. The book refers to synchronicity in nature, desires and methods to obtain the level of consciousness making fulfillment more than (mere) coincidence. This coincidence is more like synchrodestiny and likened to the non-visible universe. The idea that we can only believe what is material or physical evaporates with the new concept (new to us) that the universe is pure potential. It can occur without space/time requirements. It is. Just like I am and you are.

Carl Jung is known for his development of synchronicity in analytical psychology. He described synchronicity as an “acasual connecting principle” and as an “acasual parallelism”. He felt the principle gave proof (or conclusive evidence) for his concepts of archetypes and the collective unconscious. He thought it was descriptive of the governing dynamic that underlies the complete human experience (and history) - social, emotional, psychological, and spiritual. He also that individuation was required for a person to become whole. [another law] Individuation was the central concept of analytical psychology.

One of Jung’s favorite quotes on synchronicity was from “Through the Looking Glass” by Lewis Carroll where the White Queen says to Alice “It’s a poor sort of memory that only works backwords”. When I read that it led me to start thinking about an Alice and a Sally (mother and daughter, both important people in my life). Jung believed firmly that these “coincidences” happen all the time. I remember really liking the song by Police “Synchronicity” and a “music video” by Tom Petty about “Alice in Wonderland” and another song by Jefferson Airplane that my wife (former) played for me the first time I heard it. She was in Charleston, South Carolina and I called her from King Salmon, Alaska.  It was about 1:00 A.M. her time.

I also remember that cat asking Alice where she wanted to go and getting the response from Alice that she really did not know. This led to the cat saying then it really does not matter which way you go.  Atypical coincidences? Jung also emphasized the importance of harmony and balance, the whole person.   

There is an effort going on to find, witness, observe what is called the “God” boson. Particle colliders are set up to race “particles” faster and faster towards each other until they approach the speed of light. At that time the scientists will make the particles collide with each other to see what happens.   A collider is a type of a particle accelerator involving directed beams of particles. Colliders may either be ring accelerators or linear accelerators. anyway some folks think this is a silly thing to do. maybe that is why the new one is way under ground and has taken so long to build and get ready to use.

In particle physics, bosons are particles which obey Bose–Einstein statistics; they are named after Satyendra Nath Bose and Albert Einstein. Another name for the unseen boson is the Higgs boson named after “theory” physics from Higgs and Einstein. The Higgs boson is the basic “force”, or unit, that is touted as the elemental basis of our universe.  

Einstein’s theory is now very well established as the correct description of motion of relativistic objects, that is those traveling at a significant fraction of the speed of light.

Because most of us have little experience with objects moving at speeds near the speed of light, Einstein’s predictions may seem strange. However, many years of high energy physics experiments have thoroughly tested Einstein’s theory and shown that it fits all results to date.

From the SLAC website - In fact Einstein’s relationship tells us more, it says Energy and mass are interchangeable. Or, better said, rest mass is just one form of energy. For a compound object, the mass of the composite is not just the sum of the masses of the constituents but the sum of their energies, including kinetic, potential, and mass energy. The equation E=mc² shows how to convert between energy units and mass units. Even a small mass corresponds to a significant amount of energy.

• In the case of an atomic explosion, mass energy is released as kinetic energy of the resulting material, which has slightly less mass than the original material.
• In any particle decay process, some of the initial mass energy becomes kinetic energy of the products. end SLAC para.

There is a simple “awesome” fact that a gram is equal to  24.9 million kilowatt-hours. 

From me, the question would be ”Is either real or it is electrical?” From a non layperson (nuclear, energy physics, particle) the initial “mass” energy becoming the kinetic energy of the products is probably a second-natured law. I do remember something about the human body creating energy converting “stuff” we eat and burning calories. Another law about energy.  

The total amount of mass–energy in a closed system remains constant because energy cannot be created or destroyed and, in all of its forms, trapped energy has mass. According to the theory of relativity, mass and energy as commonly understood are two names for the same thing, and one is not changed to the other. Rather, neither one appears without the other. When energy changes type and leaves a system, it takes its mass with it

I have also read that we basically will cause more chaos as human existence continues because we bring more disorder into our world by using up high-quality energy resources and then replace it with lower, or poor quality, energy. Sort of like I eat for energy and I release lower grade matter into the earth. Eventually the finite resources we use become depleted from the ecosystem.  

When we die our matter becomes CO. But where does our “real” energy go? I digress I guess but I believe that our energy does change as we leave our earthly plane. I think we become an infinite potentiality (again). 

I have been reading a lot about dark energy and it is awe-inspiring to me as a lay person. The concept is that at the instant of “the big bang” the calculated matter (mass) that created the universe only accounts for some 10% of what should be. This gives rise to the idea of some 90% not visible which was named dark energy/dark matter. Conceptually, the invisible has an infinite potential to become instantaneously whatever is needed. Sort of like kinetic, or resting, energy.

The idea of space/time not affecting everything is scary, voiding a lot of scientific laws. It is like watching “Flash Gordon” if anyone remembers that show. A later “space” movie came along that I watched probably 15 times over the years called “2001 A Space Odyssey “. The Space Odyssey series is a science fiction series of four novels and two films created from 1948 to 1997, primarily by the writer Arthur C. Clarke. Without thinking about it I named a major database and software project repository “HAL9000″, a coincidence I guess. Another example was a TV show called “Star Trek”. I believe I watched every segment or series installment. I even met some of the characters later in life while attending a computer show. My mind was captured by the information and specials from or about Carl Segan, especially a series about the brain and how it performed things like a computer system. All coincidental to me even having the idea of getting into computing (computers and systems). I went to take pre-entrance testing with a friend who wanted to get into the computer field. He didn’t pass the exams but I did. If I had not gone basically in support of him, I would not have even taken the computer field testing process. Another coincidence, maybe.    

My most “strange” feeling, other than feeling the presence of Picasso (one of my favorite painters) about a minute before I heard on the radio he had just died or hearing over the loud speaker at school while in chemistry class that Kennedy had been killed when not heard by anyone in the class until about a minute later when the message was repeated, come to think of it I have had a lot of these strange feelings (or coincidences). Oh, back to the strangest feeling I have had (so far). I remember having a shuttering inside when I read Chopra and Jung discussing many concurrent incarnations happening at the same time. Basically concurrent worlds unknown to each other. Though not totally messed up in the head I have had those same thoughts before about slightly out of sync (so we would not know it) worlds going on here at the same time.   

The concept of infinite potentialities is beyond most current thinking, but not for my mother. She went to school until the sixth grade before “staying home” while her sister continued school. She was helping the household by being home cleaning and cooking.

She had a simple thought or principle that she shared with me after we talked about a dream she had which bothered me. I asked her what I could do to prepare for things she “foresaw”. She said her dreams always came true though the meanings sometimes had to be uncovered (the subconscious talking to the conscious). She said that she had dreamed about me and my marriage but did not tell me.

Later she told me she dreamed of having another child but she knew that could not be true because she had an operation (hysterectomy). Then she found that she had contracted cancer (third generation at the same age) instead of being pregnant. She told me she had another dream that the news was the real reason for her dream. She was told she would have hard days ahead but she would not die of this cancer.

 Her doctor told me after some chemo and cobalt treatments the cancer had left a fairly large hole where good tissue was destroyed while trying to stop/kill the cancer. He said it had entered all her lymph-nodes and there was no chance for her to survive. His estimate was she had less than two months left, they had done everything possible to stop or kill the cancer to no avail. He said I should think about what I heard and decide whether to tell my family. I said no I won’t be telling them.

He had the family come to a conference room a couple of weeks later. He gave us all the “bad news”. He asked my sisters whether they had been having regular checkups since this was an obvious genetic concern. My sisters looked at each other and I could tell they had not really thought about that. My sister closest to my age said she had cancelled her checkup, my other sister said she had not scheduled one. The doctor told my sisters and my aunt (mother’s sister) they should now make it a clear priority.

Though I can’t remember the oncologist’s name he became a Christian because of my mother. The next week he said he noticed what appeared to be a glow around her head on his rounds and thought it was because his eyes were tired because he came by after his regular work schedule to see her. He thought he needed to get his eyes checked because that “glow” occured three days in a row.

 He heard the nurses talking about patients from several floors coming by to talk with her and ask for her prayers.

His next series of testing showed the cancer had stopped spreading. It had gone into “remission”. He asked me to come by on my way to see her and told me “this really is a miracle”, the cancer has stopped spreading.

He was the head of the cancer organisation at our medical university and state cancer society president during this period of time.

This is being shared as background for the wisdom my mother gave me. She said that in my life time people would actually be killing others over tennis shoes and the country would have a bad time like the depression was for her. I asked her what I could do to prepare for this. She said I could not prepare. She said all I could do is go forward trusting in God and “simply believe“. That is all you have to do. We never talked about it again.

I hope that you leave this article (blog post) with a reason to believe that anything really is possible.

With love and best wishes for you today.

It works. The unconscious augments or takes over a thought, problem or situation to come up with resolutions or answers that elude the consciousness.

It is akin to turning something over to God.

Self never provides lasting results. The ego, vanity, self-serving or uncaring will always suffer what is called hell. Eventually!

Positive thinking, persisting, doing, caring provide for lasting good shared with the universal.

Take this to heart and act accordingly.

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I have read the above people’s writings and they have personally affected me mentally and physically in my approach and  actions.

My birthday today, September 23. As many people I started to go down memory lane. I looked at early pictures trying to get in touch with and “feel” the time when I got my “Davy coonskin hat” or my dog, bullet, or my first love, or my first car.

Then I shifted my thinking to about love, family, and work.

Physically, I have spent the last week organizing information for me. Mental, polyneuropathy, poor balance, digestive  processing (poor absorption of vitamins and minerals) are all equally disturbing. Some information follows:

Please note that if you click on the http links in this post you will have to use your browser page back function (like the back arrow on Internet Explorer) to return to this blog entry from the external link. 

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My doctors have explained “my” situation regarding affects of age, quality of life and expectations based on the genetics passed on from the “family tree”.

I was told that to some extent I could modify the affects of genetics by focusing on environmental aspects of living.

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I tried to follow the above diagram but it became a little fuzzy like the next picture.

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The underlying information was that I am “pre” disposed to diabetes, high blood pressure, high cholesterol and triglycerides, stroke, heart attack, mental conditions, a pot belly, cataracts, skin problems, like stucco keratosis, pattern baldness, graying hair, nervous system or hypothalamic-pituitary-adrenal (HPA axis) problems, neuroendocrinology, the inability to extract nutrients (process vitamins and minerals critical for health/maintenance) and last, but not least, the fact that hypothalamic development and response to an acute stressor is determined by pre-pubertal stress in early life.

One link I reference in trying to understand and track the main aspects is

(http:en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hypothalamus)

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hypothalamus 

The previous link is where I reviewed the connections and references with a certain amount of awe. I came from a thought, an energy pulse. I am part of the “I am”; my journey yet the self knowing, part of the One. What simplicity, what complexity. “Is or is not.” - Yoda in Star Wars. “Believe” is what my mother said so many years ago to me. Simply believe.

It is not about “self” or “id”. It is all about the soul, that part of all, that detachment from self, the inner peace detached from the outcome of events.

I could go on and on with the topic of time and energy, selflessness, unlimited incarnations, presence (force) in a rock, a tree, a plan. DNA, we have far fewer pairs/strings/genes than the monkey. Sameness as in a seed. It can be dormant and unchanged until an event takes place (watering). Then it turns into a something that is the same as (a seed of grass for example). Maybe that is where the old Bible saying came from when telling (people) to have the faith of a muster seed. Now I understand the real meaning. Even the mustard seed knows everything it needs to know.  

The universe is said to be made up of some 10% of what should have existed from the “big bang”. The other 90% is now called dark matter (because we can’t see it). I think it is all potentiation waiting to exist. Is this nonstuff waiting to instantly become whatever is needed? I believe so. See, I have always been what is called an existentialist. I have always been drawn to people like Carl Segan.

Happy Birthday to me…..and you have a nice day. See you soon.